“The night is dark and full of terrors.”
Self-harm is always attached to seeing a wound or a scar. But the best crimes are made with no evidence.
Some people are oblivious to cries for help, but I guess that’s what I need. Maybe that’s what it’s about—I don’t need help. Continue on with what you’re doing.
I’m staying up tonight for work. Besides, whether I’m asleep or not I’m always in a nightmare. Tonight, I’m giving up. Guess I’m going back to where I was before. Maybe this is where I belong.
—A
Periwinkle
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Today has been too unproductive! I planned on getting my medical certificate, finishing a poster and a flyer, and fixing my room today, but my lazy ass only managed to do one because it had to involve my mother.
I’ll probably finish the poster and flyer later, so I have to start fixing the room tomorrow morning. Hello, clothing clutter! Can’t wait to redecorate and all. Hope I finish it before the semester starts again.
Also, I’ve been obsessing over shoes today! I’ve spent the hours on the internet searching for tons of shoes I’ll lust over for (what seems like another) few months. Wonder when I’m getting a pair of my favorites. :(
Since today has been unproductive (which is most of the time synonymous to uneventful; it is in this case), I don’t have much to say. My nails are in a pretty light blue color, though. Surely you’re not interested in that.
With love.
—A
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Go ahead, love. Continue.
Today has been too unproductive! I planned on getting my medical certificate, finishing a poster and a flyer, and fixing my room today, but my lazy ass only managed to do one because it had to involve my mother.
I’ll probably finish the poster and flyer later, so I have to start fixing the room tomorrow morning. Hello, clothing clutter! Can’t wait to redecorate and all. Hope I finish it before the semester starts again.
Also, I’ve been obsessing over shoes today! I’ve spent the hours on the internet searching for tons of shoes I’ll lust over for (what seems like another) few months. Wonder when I’m getting a pair of my favorites. :(
Since today has been unproductive (which is most of the time synonymous to uneventful; it is in this case), I don’t have much to say. My nails are in a pretty light blue color, though. Surely you’re not interested in that.
With love.
—A
Minima
Beliefs are rejected
Wait in the abyss
Darkness subjected
Thoughts are amiss
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Files are extracted
Future must cease
Gone when unneeded
Stop in the knees
This summer has not been much for the books. However, I am very happy I was able to experience my first summer job at the age of sixteen! I’m already starting to think about how I’m going to spend my first paycheck even if it’s still a few weeks away. I’m still contemplating whether or not I should use it for having my iPod repaired or splurging it on a new watch (I have been lusting over for too much)!
It feels so liberating to earn your own money and use it for yourself. Maybe I can do this again next summer so I can make some of the things on my wish list come true (countless expensive but elegant watches and shoes are included in the list). Maybe I can get a different job, or maybe WorldFish will re-hire me—whatever the case may be I’m definitely up for working for the summer again.
Three idle months feel like enough to jumpstart my academic drive for the second year in the university. I’m still thinking about whether or not to join an organization or should I postpone it to next semester. I don’t know; guess we’ll see in a few weeks!
Wish the sunny days would last for a couple more months. I always hate the rain; I’m never good at shielding myself from dropping water. :( Guess I’ll have to make do with what I have.
—A
PS. Accidentally posted it twice on the other blog, haha. So confusing.
I’m at the library
Writing bland poetry
Hating monotony
Wish it was sunny
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Trying to be witty
Words pass too quickly
Wish it was easy
Doesn’t come nat’rally
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Notebook got wet
Off with ice, I regret
Now I feel upset
All ideas, I forget
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Now growing serious
Why so capricious?
Turning too anxious
This is delirious
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Behind anonymity
Lurks no gallantry
Stop being cowardly
The point is said clearly
—
Beginning the ending
It’s closure I’m feeling
I hope you’re not cringing
At sight of poor rhyming
—A
Apollo-getic
A simple love with a complex touch.
I’m sitting here, just finished with the poster/flyers for a friend’s business with a towel still wrapped around my damp hair and listening to my favorite summer songs. I am not surprised that every night turns into an emotional blur. Then again I’m just a bundle of raging hormones that is really deprived of sleep and breakfast food (for every meal of the day).
Here’s to my bland poetry and spontaneity for haikus:
Here I am again
Suspended in air alone
Back to beginnings
Wish I could stop feeling anything.
—A
Library
Today has been such an emotional whirlwind, I can’t explain in words how much I’ve felt today.
In any case, I’m pretty sure you can all relate to me when I tell you how incredibly and frustratingly slow the internet is here. I don’t understand why it’s been acting this way for a month now! Hopefully our internet provider improves their services soon. :(
I believe (and hope) my insatiable need to see him is linked to my feeling of losing a companion and can be mended through rekindling friendships (and/or seeing adorable puppies). Then again I have yet to still understand my sentiments and emotions.
This will all make perfect sense someday.
—A
Midnight talks.
Why did I have to remember yesterday was the 12th? I always forget when the 12th of every month falls on. He always reminds me by asking me what plans do we have to celebrate another passed month and by greeting me as soon as the clock strikes twelve. It’s really patient of him to understand and move around my unintentional forgetfulness and my not giving as much importance to it. He’s one of the only few people who are that much patient with me, and I still genuinely appreciate that.
In any case, can’t wait for tomorrow. At least there’s something to keep me off my over-thinking.
—A
Grecia
My evening has started right after a much needed shower and dinner. I’m extremely happy I was able to survive a week of office work, and I can’t believe this but I’m excited to resume working on Tuesday! What I do to get paid is not my cup of tea, but I love how I can simultaneously resize photos and read a book.
So far since Monday, I’ve finished the first four installments of Riordan’s Percy Jackson & The Olympians. I love how I can still inject the sense of adventure in clerical activities.
Also, I made minor changes to the blog’s layout which I feel like were much overdue. However, it took me longer than expected to make the changes because I couldn’t find the perfect serif font for the blog. Lately I’ve been very in love with the serif types so I might keep the font for a while. The italicization of the it delicately compliments the normal look; I’m in love! I’m still not contented with how it looks so technically the blog is under construction if you will.
Today’s the day! The sun is shining, the tank is clean, and we are getting out of her—*gasp* the tank is clean. THE TANK IS CLEAN?!
I have to admit this is one of my favorite lines in a movie ever! If you didn’t recognize it, it’s from Finding Nemo delivered by Peach the Starfish. I will probably have the same excited feeling (sans the gasping) tomorrow for the blood drive! Everybody has put so much effort into organizing it, I can’t wait for it to pay off. I’m not volunteering tomorrow as I made plans (which were cancelled the last minute). I’m still attending the drive to give moral support to those losing a pound of blood for a good cause.
I’m also starting up on reading the fifth installment in the book series—my way of saying I’m ending this. *no pun intended*
I hope all is well; have a great long weekend!
—A
Hello from work!
The exact moment I decided to check up on my Tumblr dash was the precise time it decided to show me the most ridiculously hilarious posts. I never excelled in poker face wearing, so here I am, pretend yawning. I feel like people here are starting to think I’m crazy sleepy or something. Is that better than thinking about me as the lazy student assistant? Probably, I could convince them I’m so, so tired from work. BULL SHIT. (How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days reference)
In any case, greetings from the workplace. I’m using the issued laptop for working for blogging. This feels wrong, and I should probably stop. Because I’m a good person, aren’t I? Aren’t I? You better not be laughing at this…this is not one of my jokes.
But hey, it’s almost time to go. I still have to clear out today’s internet history and finalize all my finished work for today.
Hope all is well from your work (or procrastination) place too.
—bad ass A
